Love

Sigh I love him so much:)

Fly lady

So I Have been reading a very cool website. Its called Flylady.net. I decided that I would sign up. Its free and you get daily email reminders. The whole point of this website is to help you be more organized. You get daily tasks to do along with comments and support from other people who may be having the same troubles. I thought about taking pictures around my house so you can see the mess I'm dealing with. But even I'm to vain to let you all see how messy things are..ha ha! So far I've gotten lots of great ideas and I think I am going to do well with this. Basically it teaches you how to do things out of routine. You get caught up by getting into a routine and not spending more than 5 or 10 minutes on certain projects. I like the idea!! I was amazed to see how many women are out there that are having the same problem..trying to juggle life, family, husbands, work, etc. So many are behind like me and really feeling the pinch of it. My house gets messy and I am embarassed to have anyone over...I have to spend hours cleaning if we decide to have company and its very hard on me..It was really bad when I was pregnant..Now I have no excuse! Its hard when you have kids too, and to those out there who keep a shining house Kuddos! I have not been able to figure it out yet~ But am dilligently working on it..

chicken or candy corn?

That is the question. Man this clean eating is HARD. Its one of those things that you have to be ready to do and commited to. Like quitting smoking. I've never been a smoker, but I've observed people that have quit and tried to quit. If you aren't ready you won't make it. That's how I feel about food. Of course I don't like the changes I see in my body. Extra fat here, dimples there and it bothers me every day. I've had a baby BUT I still have extra fat that I know I can shake. Its called the skinny fat. Everyone always tells me how thin I am etc, but its like I'm hiding some sort of dark secret. My clothes camoflauge a lot. I don't even want to get started on my other clothes not fitting yet. I absolutely refuse to buy a new wardrobe. I just need to get over this food addiction that has such a huge hold on me.

Today was going very well. I did well the better part of the day. I ate well, skipped Starbucks, only ate a few candy corn. Made a good dinner, (chicken, steamed veggies and a small baked potato). Then I started feeling snacky! My wonderful hubby reminds me of the chocolate cake that we had gotten at the store. The chocolate cake I had been avoiding for the past few days. So I had a small piece and that turned into 2 and maybe a little more later:( all this while watching the biggest loser. So here I sit, not feeling any better and having a headache from the coffee I didn't drink today. *sigh* tomorrow will be better!

vaccines

Boy oh boy is this a heated debate. My mind is spinning to try and decide what is right for our family. On one hand I value my children's health more than anything. I think some vaccines are very important and on the other hand I'm scared to death as far as what is right for them and what isn't. I really hate to think that the vaccine market is all about money. Our health is so important and its scary to think that our government could be so corrupt that they would be trying to line the pockets of these big pharmaceutical companies. The evidence in both ways is very compelling. There are sooo many more vaccines now than there has ever been. Is this because medicine has gotten better and stronger and they are more readily available to help keep us healthy? Or is it because they are trying to profit off of some thing that is very fragile in my mind. I don't know. I do know I have researched and researched and picked a lot of different people's brains as far as how they vaccinate their kids and if they don't why. The stuff in these vaccines are scary..Would our bodies be able to fight this stuff off alone??? I just don't know anymore. I do know that now that I have another little guy in the house I want him to be healthy..I did break down and have a flu vaccine yesterday..2 years ago I had the flu, and I was so sick I could hardly get out of bed. It lasted for around 2 weeks. I can not afford to risk putting him at risk. So tell me how do you feel about vaccines and the modern day medicine that we are using so frequently..there is so much conspiracy about everything anymore..I've heard there are people who believe we didn't land on the moon and that it was taped in the desert..So there are always going to be people who question everything and this makes our decisions that much harder..Wow..Its going to be a long life time of figuring this one out!

4 weeks old

Baby boy turned 4 weeks old today:). ♥ His personality is really starting to shine. He is starting to smile at us. Its great. He is spending more time awake and has really become alert. He sleeps great and his appetite is awesome:). We are going Tuesday to get some baby photos.

I feel great! Ready to take on more and get more done.
Mark and Alec are awesome! Brandon is busy as ever with work and side projects. Hopefully it pays off in the long run. I'm confident it will. He works hard and we have faith:)

Hubby and I discussed waiting until Blake is around 2 before we decide on permament birth control. I think most likely we are done, but I want to make sure before hubby does anything hasty. Like get snipped. I'm not really big on any form of permanent birth control. We've talked about an IUD but I'm scared. I'd rather take bc pills. But don't want to yet because of the breast feeding. I don't want my milk to dry up. So right now we are waiting and will decide a little later.

Clean eating

Well I have decided to delve full on into some thing I have spent so much time looking into and not doing. Clean eating! I have read so many books and know what I should be putting into my body, although I never seem to be able to stick with it. I get tired of eating the same ol same ol..But Alas I think its time I get with the program and get past my unorganizedness...and get started..I have been reading the cleaning eating book by Tosca Reno..I bought a few years back. Then I bought the Butt book by her and her clean eating for Kids. I need good and healthy recipes if I'm going to stick with this. Unfortunately my favorite Starbucks drink right now (Pumpkin Spice Latte) is 540 calories. No wonder the scale hasn't budged. Thats crazy..I'm hungry all the time. Granted I'm breast feeding and need more calories but I think my body is lacking in the foods I'm eating and why I'm so hungry and crave all the sugar and junk. So we will see how it goes. I hope to be back down to pre pregnancy weight by December..Not if I keep with the starbucks though..lol..I did just have a baby and I understand that I need time to heal, but I feel eating right will put me where I need to be. Also incorporating some excercise and all of the calories I'm burning by nursing..I will keep you all updated!!

3 weeks

Well here we are at week 3 already. Blake is doing great. He still sleeps a lot and has his moments usually at night when he doesn't want to sleep. He thinks its time to party when its time to go to bed. Normally when he is sleeping I'm trying my hardest to get things done. So when bedtime rolls around I'm worn out. I'm starting to feel back to myself. Not so much of an emotional roller coaster like I was. I still have some baby weight to shake, but I can see this is going to be a challenge as I seem to be starving every waking minute. Now I know what your thinking, its only been 3 weeks..but as we all know the weeks start going by faster and faster..So as long as it hasn't been a year and I should be good. ha ha! In all reality I'm sure its breast feeding stores that my body is holding onto. I only have 14lbs to lose. I gained a total of 38. Which is significantly less than with my other two. I think around 50-60..Yikes! I also seem to be healing much faster than with the other two..Better experience..maybe..who knows...The scale certainly hasn't budged in a week or so. I'm sure weighing every day doesn't help either. So I should get back on track soon and I really don't want to do anything to hurt my breast milk supply. I nursed both boys with out formula and plan to do the same with this one. I used to be concerned about nursing and how my ladies would be after wards..well they will be fine and I will have a much healthier baby..Thank heavens for push up and great support bras..

Its funny how much more self concious you are after a baby. I normally slim down pretty great and I'm sure I will this time around too. But its still something I think we all worry about. I still want to be the only girl that catches my hubby's eye..well except for Megan Fox..ha ha!
In all reality he is thrilled to have 3 boys that are healthy and relieved that everything went good with labor and delivery. ME TOO!!
So here is to another week that has passed! I hope to keep blogging and just sending out random thoughts. I really like it! A great way to journal in your own right mind and vent..its great.