Halloween

Halloween was so much fun this year! We took the kids to our church for an hour.  They played and did all the activities while we volunteered.  It was a good time:) I bought Brandon a gigantic Blue crayon which he boycotted at the last minute. 

His title was your either Swat or your not! He wore Mark's Swat costume that he decided he didn't want to wear last minute.   Blake was supposed to be just a pumpkin, but at press time we decided he was a french pumpkin.  He had the look..Wearing the hat was very short lived though..So really he was more like  pumpkin ball.

I really could not tell you what I was.  Funky wig that didn't look like the package..dark make up, a few facial tattoos and a spider on my neck..a spider shirt..Maybe an alter ego, or lady of darkness..haha..I felt like a jerk though .Optimus prime sat next to me on my right..he was so quiet I didn't even know he was there.  He totally stepped into character. Although he was shooting from his hands like iron man.  It was cute though.  I had to call him optimus to get a response. 

What do you call a Hamburger that you try to buckle up in the car?? Well I don't know either, but here is how it looks! Oh and Optimus himself!! We had a great time.  Went trick or treating for a while afterwards.  We walked and walked and walked.  Alec Brushed his hand on a cactus, so we had to do an emergency prickly-pokey-dectomy...

Our friends included Sarah, Aaron, Rainbow Brite (Emma) Randy, his sister Amy who was also due on Halloween and gave birth yesterday!! Three of her kids, Randy's two boys (iron man 1 and 2) It was hard to keep track of everyone. All in all we had lots of fun!!

Camera bandit strikes again!

Yep there he is! Teasing us with just a brief glimpse of himself.  Encouraging the bad behavior of the littlest member of our family. Taking booty shots of his mom and littlest family member cruising by..When will the madness end.  I hope not any time soon:)

Baptism

Last Sunday my hubby and I got baptized! We had been talking about it for a bit and sort of put it on the back burner.  Then we had gone to church a few weeks ago and were inspired to be baptized.  One of our church members Tom was talking about a fellow co worker that had passed away unexpectedly.  He said that one of his worries was that he did not know if his friend had been saved.  He felt very guilty and said he would make sure that no one slipped through the cracks again and that he would make sure he knew more about his friends and their lives with God.  Brandon and I were both very touched by his story and decided it was time.  I was thinking about waiting until we had been in church for a year or so, but it all hit me there was no reason to wait.  My niece was in charge of taking photos so unfortunately I didn't get any on my camera.  We both were baptized on October 10, 2010.  The water was so icy that I could not breathe.  I am so happy we made that decision for us.  Sometimes I am shy to talk about it because I can't stand the fact that there are so many people out there making judgements on every one.  I need to have a good relationship with God and feel I am moving in the right direction.  Church has been great and some how I feel stronger.  Things just seem to be flowing in a good direction.  Its really nice.  On Friday our friend Dave was also baptized.  He is in his 50's and had never been baptized.  It was nice to get it done. We were ready for that step and so happy we all made the commitment. Its hard to make such a big commitment, but it will be so much better for us in the long run.

Happy Birthday

Well Blake turned one on September 20th! We had his first birthday a few weeks later on October 2nd.  I'm a little last posting since I always seem to have an issue with my computer not wanting to work or take my pictures.  So here they are, all the pictures you have been waiting for!  He had the best time.  He ran all over, really enjoyed his cake and carried around each and every toy!

Send Out Cards

Did I ever mention I had a business? No probably not.  Its a very neat business and up until the point I have let my insecurities get the best of me and have not told all the people I know about our wonderful little (Not for long) business.  I am huge on relationships and always have been.  About 5 years ago when Mark was just a little guy I got the opportunity to meet someone so wonderful words can not even describe him.  His name is Jordan Adler.  He has been in business for himself for years.  When he was introduced into this new venture he made sure that we knew about it. Jordan does not jump unless there is a great opportunity. He thinks everything out and he is just a super nice down to earth guy.
So we talked with him a few times and jumped in both feet first.  But I often tend to let my insecurities get in the way.  I was handed this incredible opportunity and I didn't do anything with it.  In fact I have done this several times. Its growing bigger and bigger and what have I done, with it?  Got shut down a few times and quit! I do this and then kick my self over and over.  I've got to quit doing this to my self.  I need to be confident.
So this last week was the convention.  I was really bummed that we didn't go. I have been mowing over all the pictures and checking out all the fun that was had by all. I decided to get on the weekly conference call and listen to what jordan had to say.  He told of how awesome it was and all the great announcements that SOC had made over the weekend.  Then something funny happened. He was talking about people that had aha moments while he was showing them the service.  He then mentioned the time that he had Brandon send me a card and that it brought tears to my eyes.  Brandon signed up immediately and we were hooked.  This was just the sign I needed.  I haven't been on a conference call in months and the night I am the TOP INCOME EARNER of the company mentions us! I'm very big on signs, and I think this is just the one to get me going!!
So yes, I have my very own business and I'm  proud to say so...and excited all over again:)

Isn't it funny...

Isn't it funny that no matter how many wrongs or injustices that another person may cause us that we feel compassion towards them?  I guess this is all about forgiveness and moving on. Years ago Brandon had an ex girl friend, yada, yada, yada..Fast forward 13 years later and her sister has breast cancer.  Tested in February and the Dr said she didn't have cancer.  Now jump forward to September and she was misdiagnosed. She now has a aggressive cancer that they are dealing with.  My husbands first reaction was to pray for her.  My reaction was to cry for her.  She is someone's daughter,girlfriend, mother, sister and MOTHER..Yes I know I repeated that one, but it hit me hard. She has kids, she is only 34 or 35 and she is really sick.  Now she never cared for me because I was the new girlfriend of her sister's ex boyfriend. I get it .  Family loyalty..I would do the same thing. Later, I became his wife and time has moved on with all of us..There aren't hard feelings anymore. At least for me.  My heart aches for her and I can't seem to get it out of my mind.  Hoping that she is going to be ok and that she is going to beat this. I'm praying for her full recovery..Thinking at one time that I didn't like her because she treated me wrongfully.  But none of that matters right now. I guess in life when we think we have it bad there is alway someone out there who has it worse.  I'm praying for you girl, even if you don't know it or care.  I am and I hope you get a 100% recovery..
*funny what happens when you become a grown up, you change*

anxiety anyone?

I'm not sure why, but some times I get major anxiety.  This never used to be a problem for me but lately I've been getting really uptight.  Back in April when I had my MRI, I was causing myself some major anxiety.  I even created some of my own symptoms from worrying about things so much. After I got an all clear from the doc, I started to feel much better. 

Now lately I've been feeling uneasy again.  I don't feel stressed out, but I know that I am always concerned that there is something wrong with me. 

I worry that some thing will happen to me and that my hubby will be left with out me. That my babies will grow up with out their mom. I get this tightness in my chest and I get pains. So naturally I start worrying that there is something wrong with my heart.  I haven't been going to the gym as much and I'm sure that is part of the problem.  Really my worries seem so less than some people I know out there.  I know that there are people out there that are way worse off than I am.  I am so grateful that I have a loving husband, darling little boys who light up my life,  a great family and supportive friends.  So what's my deal..why can't I shake this?? Maybe its human nature, I don't know but I need it to go away soon. It feels like its making me crazy! I really want to avoid meds if at all possible.  Going to the doc right now just isn't feasable either.  I had insurance that I was paying 200.00 per month for JUST me.  But even after the fact I was still getting bills. So I decided to cancel it. Maybe thats why I'm uneasy..I don't like the way that our bodies can take control and give us all these symptoms and scare us so much. 

I know that God has a plan for all of us and if its my time its my time, but I can't help but pray for more time with my kids, and hubby.  I really hope this passes soon.  Worrying because you are worried is so hard on anyone. I just want to feel good and normal and not be worried all of the time. 

I never used to be a worry wart, but I guess I never had as much to live for as I do now..