I am still here!

I haven't blogged in forever! I've been so busy but I'm still around. I started working in February. It's been so hard. I love having a great job, but I can't even begin to tell you how much I miss my kids. I feel so accomplished but it's hard having to let someone know I can't work because I have a sick kids or that I'm not feeling well my self n

. The boys are already back in school! Mark is in the fourth grade, Alec is in 1st and Blake started preschool. Where has the time gone??

This year I've finally gotten a jump on my fall/ Halloween decor. Those have always been my favorite season and Holidays.  The boys are so excited, I'm just trying to soak up as much of their joy as I can. I don't know why I let my self fall Into such a slump but I'm here to say I'm taking back my favorite stuff. I want to be organized and happy and a better mom.

I'm ready for the holidays and I'm so ready for the cooler weather. The rain we had was amazing. I haven't seen rain like that since I was a kid. 

Anyways I'm back and hope to be a better blogger. I've missed all of your blogs :)

Going private

I've decided to make my blog private in the next month or so. If you read and want to stay on my list please leave me a comment or email/Facebook me. Thanks!

Evil has taken over

How do you say from today on, I will move forward? That from this moment I won't say mean and hurtful things and that today will be better...Today I will be better. My life is a mess and instead of pointing the finger, I will take responsibility and move forward..I just don't know right now..I'm filled with hurt and anger, but I have made choices..I've wronged people and I've hurt feelings and I don't think I can come back from this. Maybe I can come back stronger, but right now I just don't know.

Holy heck, I'm behind!

Wow, first off where did the summer go? Geez, I blinked and it was over. I'm not complaining because I'm ready for Fall but it just went so quick. The boys started last Monday and had a really great week. I miss them when they are gone, but I've noticed that I do get a lot more done. Well sometimes..Sometimes I catch up on a few episodes of what ever I'm loving at the moment. Which happens to be Mad Men. I'm sort of facinated by it. There is this whole romantic, sexy, scandalous thing going on. It takes place in the 60's and its fun to see how different things are compared to now. I love how original it is and what an awesome job they have done with the set and all of the vintage stuff that they've put into it. Its so crazy because back they EVERYONE smoked. Even the women, pregnant and smoking/drinking. Its just so different than now. Everything seemed so classy but at the same time there was a lot of scandal. School is also in full swing for me. I just started yesterday. I had signed up to take classes over the summer. Once I saw the syllabus, I knew I would not be able to keep up while having three kids at home and hubby gone most often.. I think I would have gotten behind and possible failed. Its unfortunate, because I would have loved to have them under my belt already but sometimes you just know your own limits. I want school to be a positive thing for me. I want to get ahead and not behind because I got overly excited and a little bit of a chip on my shoulder. I was able to test up in Math. Thankfully...But I'm so scared of math. I struggled starting in high school. I'm hoping being odlder and wiser I will be ok. I wish my brain understood math. I am lucky because I got the english lit stuff down..but I think I'd be happier being a math smartie:)Yesterday was my first class. It was all review and a pretest with NO calculator..Which makes me wonder because you can use it on the compass test. You know the one that reads how well you do in each area. The one that probably should not let you use it. Its over whelming...But at least I'm doing it. This semester brings Math, English and Psychology..and now I have to go to the college. Except for Psy. that one is online. I'm a little nervous...Hope I can keep up...Nerves are racing!

Quick Update

Yes its been FOREVER since I posted..I've been one busy girl! I finished my first semester ever of college.
That in itself was a chore. But now that I look back at the last 16 weeks I am so proud of myself. I was able to pull off A's in all 3 classes. Given they were fairly easy but I'm glad I was able to do it. I've signed up for two more summer classes. This time around will be English 102 and Psychology 245. They are more pre-requisites for my degree. Next semester I will run into a little bit of frustration though. Those darn math classes. To be able to take certain classes I have to be so far in my math. Since I'm starting at the bottom this will put me behind slightly. But that is ok, I'm doing it and thats what I needed to get going. School is out for summer!! I'm so excited and so proud of my boys. Next year I will have a 3rd grader and a Kindergartener!! Woohoo!! Alec is so excited to be starting Kindergarten. Makes me sad though. Just another time stamp as far as how fast time goes. Blake is doing great. He is talking so much and getting into even more of my stuff!! I can hear him right now singing Max and Ruby theme song. We've been busy outside already. We planted pumpkins, cantaloupe, and watermelon. We just noticed today that they sprouted. The kids are super excited. Now if I can just keep what ever is eating them out, we will be good. Some of our favorite shows are on too! We love America's got talent and Secret Millionare just to name a few. Also my guilty pleasure is the bachelorette:) and bachelor when it is on:) So nothing to big, I am trying to catch up on all of my favorite blogs. Its been weeks since I've even looked. I'm looking forward to a super summer!!

Loss of another friend

So I never really have anything to blog about..and I don't really want to bore you with my every day boringness..But I figured I would tell you about my sweet dog that we had to have put to sleep last night. When Brandon and I got our first house we didn't live there very long before we got a dog. He was working in Havasu on the day I went to the car wash to get my car washed. They had the cutest black lab there. He had been there for a few days and had just been hanging out. I just had to take him home with me. I told Brandon over the phone I had got a dog. I can still remember him and his tone when I told him I got a dog. "you got a dog?" he said..haha...I wanna say this was January of 2001. (he was 7 or 8 months old) That fall was when we got Sammy and they were instant friends. Jake was such a sweet dog. We had two big piles of dirt in our back yard and Jake had so much fun leveling both of them. He'd sniff and kick and dig. So much fun to watch. Sammy and Jake played for hours on end. A year ago we lost Sammy and I was so sad for Jake. Jake would always jump up and scratch on the door and look in the house when it was time to eat. He only barked when someone was in the ally and he would make this growl/ bark out of his mouth when you would talk to him. He had such a sweet spirit and would always put his paw on your leg or on your arm so you would pay attention to him. Sammy and Jake always would stick together when they would break out of the yard. I think it happened maybe a whole 5 times. But I was devastated every single time. Always so glad to get them back in one piece. Jake was so obnoxious to Sammy but it fit them as friends. I can picture him tugging on his fur and putting his mouth on him to chew and bite on him. I am really going to miss him. I think he had a stroke. He seemed fine yesterday. But last night he didn't come out to eat and was hididng in the bushes. He had gone blind instantly and could not get up. He also seemed very stiff. I could not let him suffer so we called the vet. We sat with him and he stayed very calm while we were there. He was so calm. I told him how much I loved him and how sorry I was that he was sick. After the vet put him to sleep he looked so peaceful and wasn't in pain anymore. I can't even read rainbow bridge without losing it. The yard feels so empty now. The wind blows and its strange. I don't see him in his dog house and he doesn't follow me around the yard anymore like he did. Its the subtle little things about him that I miss. I had him before I had kids, before I was a grown up. I hope he knows that I loved him. He was my buddy. I hope him and Sammy are in heaven running together and he doesn't feel I'm a traitor. I also hope to see him one day again.

Back to school (for me)

I finally finished my first week of online schooling. A few observations: It was harder than I thought. For some crazy reason I thought I would sail into it and get it done like a rock star...Boy was I wrong. The reading was monotonous. I had a hard time focusing and the kids seemed to know that I was trying to take care of something important. I have one pretty easy class. One that is easy but requires a lot of me. I felt very over whelmed. Now I am not going to let this get me down. But wow, I feel like waiting to go back has handicapped me in a sense. I think its just getting the grove down, but it was really hard. These classes I'm taking are online so I don't have the class room discusions like we normally would. We do have online discussions with other classmates. I am glad to be back and I need to power through this. I just took a big hit in my esteem this week. Perhaps a really good wake up call.

Sincerity

I think a little bit of sincerity goes a long way. Lately I've seen so many people just going through the motions and it really bugs me. When did life become so busy that we can't genuinely take interest in people. There are so many people out there that ask you how you are. But how many actually care or take interest. Its hard to find good friends. Even harder when everyone is so busy with their own lives. I guess I do know exactly how this is. I get busy and there are days that when I don't have to leave the house I don't. I sometimes wonder where I would be if I didn't have the few close friends I have managed to hang on to. I guess I'm very dependent on my husband and now that he is so busy with work and school I am about to go mad! Maybe thats why I'm noticing how insincere people are or can be. I probably ready way to much into it. I have a lot more time to think now that the hubby is so busy. I don't know that I could be single for very long or be a single mom. Right now all the kids needs are met by me and its tough. A little alone time goes a long way. Right now I'm working on getting my college stuff in order. Did you know they are enrolling for the spring classes already? WOW! Of course there have been a few hiccups but nothing to bad. I'm working on the financial aid aspect right now. Its being held up because around 15 years ago I took some classes with a friend. They were dual enrollment and they were being offered for free. I was still in high school and not really ready to take them seriously. I wanted to get the credits to graduate early but didn't have to have the classes. I also feel that being in high school and at the age that you aren't taken seriously I was misinformed about a lot of things. Like when you take a class, drop it if you do not intend to stay. Then it does not go on your records as a fail or affect your GPA. No clue..or buying your books...I was a poor high school student. My parents had money but I did not..haha...I didn't even know I had to have books. I mean how retarded was that? But I had never taken college classes and had never been walked through it and honestly I don't think they ever told us. So now that I'm older I know better. Its a learned thing and I'm ready to go, but I have to have to have an appeal for those classes that I didn't finish saying why..Do you think they will listen to the fact that I was a retard?? mmmm, probably not..but its just another step to move forward. I'm ready and will get there sooner or later... My challenge for you today is when you are talking to someone really be there. Take interest in them. You never know what they may be dealing with on the inside. They could be hurting really bad or just need that kick to help their self esteem.

I'm still here

I am still alive.!!! I can give you several reasons why I haven't been blogging, but here are the two most crucial. First off, my computer is in the shop. I've had issues for a while now and finally took it to get fixed. I also have a lap top that works when it wants too. Some times it charges sometimes it doesn't. Its very annoying. So some days I don't have a computer at all. Its strange, but I've noticed how much more I get done when I don't have a computer taking up my time as I sit and surf. Its crazy how fast an hour can go by when you are in surf mode. My second reason is I have writers block something terrible. I don't really have any thing exciting to blog about. My days seem to fly by in a blur but nothing to crazy happening. My hubby has been crazy busy with work and school. He started going to school to for HVAC.(Heating and cooling) So he works all day long and then has classes at night. Most of the time other wise he is spending studying. It will take him a year to get his certificate and then he is going to go for an associates in business I think. He is so smart it blows me away. I hope to have that much success when I get back to it.. My schooling is still a work in progress. I can't start my classes until the spring because of timing. But Its going to happen. Although as time goes by its really easy to talk my self out of going. Its strange how if you don't act right away its easy to lose momentum. I feel that way sometimes. Especially first thing in the morning. Mark, Alec and Blake are doing great. Mark is loving school and doing very well. I fight with Alec on going to school every Monday. The rest of the week he is fine. Blake is still running amuck. He is so funny. Growing so much and saying new words every day. I think my favorite that he says is Salsa. Its too cute. They have all 3 had the crud that comes and goes with the cold and warm weather. 2 days ago I woke up with a tickle in my throat and now I'm feeling kind of blah. Blake also turned 2 on the 20th of the September. Time is just flying by way to quick... I've been doing a lot of deal shopping and price matching on stuff..I make out my list weekly by looking at the sale papers and then I hit Wal-Mart. Its kind of annoying sometimes and seems like a lot of work, but I end up saving like crazy. Its so worth it. I've also realized that when the sale papers are dropped off on my street usually its only half of the street that gets one. Not sure why. So sometimes its my side, some times its the other side and sometimes its no one. I haven't figured out the mystery to that one yet. So yes, I am still here. I do read your posts and sometimes I don't comment but I am reading!!!

Moving Forward

What is it about change that makes us so uncomfortable? Is it moving into the unknown? Being afraid that once we get there we won't like it? I have thought and thought about going back to school. I've not made the decision for so long now because I really don't like changes. I'm happy in my little bubble. I enjoy doing things my way and not having to worry about the added stress of school. The question of going back to school has haunted me for a very long time. I always thought I'd go back. I got very comfortable in my routine with the boys. Not worrying about my future and what I would be doing. I always thought I had a lot of time to do all of this. I've watched my friends around me graduate and move into successful careers.Now I don't find my self unsuccessful (happily married, Mom to 3 boys) there is something missing. I don't feel like I've accomplished what I need to. I'm getting older and sometimes I think about what I would ever do if anything ever happened to my husband. How would I raise these 3 boys?? Thats something I never, never want to worry about but its a smart thing to consider. Also what happens to me when my boys are grown and out of the house? Who will I be then? I will always be their mom, but one day they won't need me. (as much:) ) So I've taken a few steps into moving forward. I've done a lot of research on going back to school. I've done my financial aid and the biggest most scary step....I took my compass test!!!! I think the scariest thing for me was that darn test!!! I was so scared to take it, its really held me back a lot of the time I've spent putting going back to school off. I got a 91 on my reading. An 81 on my writing. Math I didn't do so hot on. I'm going to retest on it once I study a bit more. I think I can test higher, at least I hope so. Realistically I'm at the point that if I don't test higher then I really do need to take it over again so I can do well on future math classes. I probably won't get going until the Spring semester but I'm really excited to be this far. I'm just proud of my self and for the first time in a very long time I feel intelligent again. I can be a mom and go back to school, all the while having the best of both worlds!

School is grand!

I have to tell you these past few weeks of school have been great! I love how caring everyone is and its a great feeling. The first week of school Mark fell and hit his head on one of the bars in the playground. The principal called me herself to let me know what happened. She said I could come in and check on him if I wanted to. It was really nice, and of course I went;-)

This last week Mark bonked heads with one of his class mates on the play ground and I got another call to let me know what happened. He was fine! When I went to get him he had a sticker on his shirt that said "I hit my head, please keep and eye on me." I also told Mark that we needed to change his name from Mark to Konk...;-)
This is a new school to Mark this year and I have been worried that Mark would have a hard time making new friends. Kids these days are just different. They don't seem as out going. So I sent his teacher and email letting her know that I was worried about that. She told me she moves them around in class a lot. That she would make sure he was meeting new friends. The next day the principal called me to let me know Mark's teacher had told her that I was a little worried. (Mark had been saying he missed his friends at Manzanita and wanted to go back) She went to Mark's class room and spent some time with Mark getting to know him. She told me what a nice young man he is and that they would make sure he was making friends. I was so impressed I can not even tell you how good that made me feel. I really appreciated the effort and kindness that I have been shown.
The school year is off to a great start!

Did I speak or think to fast?

Some times I have to wonder if the joke is on me. Seriously, you all remember the last bleep, bleep, bleep, bleep at my house. Well things have been going good. We are ready for school to start. I've been doing my own research on going back to school. Things have been busy but I feel like I have my groove back a lil. Then Wham!?! I am talking to my hubbies other niece Cara. She is the sister to Bleep, who just moved out! She has been staying with her Grandpa for the past few years. She has been with Brandon's mom forever and ever. Until Brandon's estranged sister got out of jail and started inhabiting her home. Until his nephew got in trouble and got kicked out of his place with Brandon's other sister.
So Cara moves in with her Grandpa so she can get away from the drama at
her Grandma's. His health isn't the greatest but he has managed to take care of her and has enjoyed her being there for him. Recently he was admitted to the hospital 3rd time in the last 2weeks. He needs 24 hour care and is going to the Gardens. Sooooo, I get a call from Cara saying Her and Grandma want to come meet with us. Cara wants to know if she can move in with us. WHAT?!? Did they forget that I just had a nightmare move out of my house? I told them we would think about it. I don't want to make any quick decisions. That is what happened last time.

This niece is totally different than her sister but I just don't know. I'm angry with Brandon's mom for not trying to do things different and putting up with the things she puts up with. I know she isn't even happy in her own home. There are always people in and out and its just a bunch of bologna what she allows to go on. Brandon's niece just started 9th grade. She is a good girl a little needy, but a good girl. She and Trenton don't know who their dad is. With everything they have been through I think she is the one that is going to do well in life and stays out of trouble etc.
I feel bad because I don't want her to feel like she isn't wanted. But what about my family? We suffer to..rrrrrr!

New school year

Well the count down is on. We start school on Monday. I went to meet the teacher yesterday. I felt so out of place and awkward. I really hope that feeling goes away. Mark and Alec are both really excited. I don't know why I let it bother me so much but I do. I want my kids to be in the best place possible. I wanted them to go to the charter school so bad and now I'm scared and really missing the other school. We have been so blessed that they have been accepted so I don't want to seem ungrateful. I'm just nervous. I want them to make friends and be happy.
I did come to the conclusion last night that this has nothing to do with them and everything to do with me. They will do great. They will be happy where ever they are. Friendship didn't come easy to me in school. I don't know what made me so different but Jr. High was a nightmare. I'm so glad its over and that I don't have to do it again. In my head last night I was thinking that this was 19+ years ago and I'm still thinking about it?? The people that made me unhappy are spread all over the world and dealing with who knows what. I had a good cry and a good pray and feel like I was able to let it go. Now I just need to work on being more personable. Not let the fear of being alone get to me.

Ding dong the witch is gone!!

Ok so here is my last post on this subject. She is now gone and it is time to let it go. My niece moved all of her stuff out two Saturdays ago. All but her little dog. She said she would come Tuesday to get her but didn't. Understandably she wanted to vaccinate her before taking her to her new home. Tuesday came and I didn't hear from her until around 3pm. She wanted me to take her to cash her boyfriends check that he had signed over to her. She doesn't have her own account and I guess they needed the cash pronto. Now I don't know what time his job hands out checks but like everything else she waited until the last minute to ask me. He was already at work. He started at 3pm. I told her I would call my bank and ask if they would cash it but I had my suspisions that they wouldn't. I was right. So I let her know and she was annoyed like any other day.
Let me back up to Friday..She called Friday night as 9:45. Hubby and I were going to Laughlin to meet up with my sis and her husband last minute. I told my niece that we were leaving and she asked if I could leave the door unlocked. UMMM, NO!! She said she HAD to get over here that night and get everything ready to go for the next day..move some boxes around and throw out some trash. She said it was the only time she had as they were coming to get her stuff the next morning. Besides she wanted to see her dog that she hadn't seen in a few days.

I did end up letting her come to finish up her organizing and packing. I decided that I wanted to get her out and didn't want to leave her with any reason not to get her stuff. She said she would be here Saturday morning.

Saturday afternoon they finally show up. With out friends to help them move..they waited an hour for some people to show up. They had it all moved out side and packed up and left. No good bye, thank you, kiss my booty nothing. I didn't hear from her until the following Saturday when she came to pick up her dog. We were at the grocery store and she called. I didn't answer because I didn't recognize the number. 3 calls later and she called Brandon. She said they were ALREADY at our house and wanted the doggie. Brandon told her we were at the store and it would probably be an hour before we got home. She gave the same old song and dance about how this was the ONLY time they could come and get her and that they were already here. Brandon told her he understood that but she needed to call before coming over. She got huffy and hung up on him calling me back right away. Asking if it was really going to be an hour...No it probably wasn't but geez, I am so tired of putting my life on hold for her. I ended up checking out and forgetting half of what I needed at the store. She got her dog, dish and some food. Good bye right..Nope!!

This Tuesday she picked up her 9.00 check from work. She came by my house at 6pm wanting to know if I could take her to cash her check...Well NO because they are already closed. I think she was hoping I'd just give her the cash. RRRRR!!!

So yesterday she called and of course I didn't answer. She left a message again about cashing her check and doing some laundry. What the F! SERIOUSLY...I ONLY see her when she wants some thing and she wanted to move out to be a big girl but still wants all the perks of living here?? Any time she ever did anything for me like watching the kids her boyfriend HAD to be here and I always owed her something.

I don't mind helping her out, but she told me she didn't want help all the times she said she had NO reason to be home. I never know if what she says is the truth or a lie and I'm tired of it. She went to the ER for a UTI and the bill got sent to her GPa in her dads name. They only did a urine test and a pregnancy test and it cost 1033.00. I told her about the bill and she said oh well my dad can take care of it. Its in his name and its responsibility....WOW..
She also got fired from her job because she was a no call no show. She was moving that day and her boyfriend fell into some glass. So they went to the ER. Now when I asked her if she worked she said she FORGOT. Now she says she was at the ER the whole time and tried calling for hours on end. That when she finally reached someone it was after her shift and she hadn't called since then because she doesn't have a phone any more. They've moved and she hasn't had access to a phone. Well she certainly doesn't have a problem finding a phone to call me when she needs something. So she showed up all ready to work and he was like UMM, you don't work here anymore. So of course that was his fault and she gave him a piece of her mind. Ahhhh!!! RRRRRRR...Deep breath and let it go..Hopefully this is done now.

**Disclaimer**
*Now I do sound mean and heartless but I really do love her and wish her well and right now I'm angry..But I'm just beyond burnt with the whole situation*

Something new

Both of my boys have been accepted into the Charter School in our area.  I'm happy, excited, nervous and concerned.  When I originally applied and Mark didn't get in, I was heart broken.  After a few years at our other school I really got over it and got quite attached. When Alec got in I was excited and nervous all over again. I was worried because after Alec got in Mark's chances would increase a lot.  But I really thought he would not get in and I would have a year to decide if it was really what I wanted or not.  A chance to feel out the school and try things. What did I have to lose? So a few weeks later I got a call saying Mark had been accepted. Of course I got all worried and concerned. Why is it that when we think we want something so bad and then we get it, we are apprehensive? I remember being sooo heartbroken when Mark wasn't accepted. So why am I worried now?  I know that I don't want him to attend the JR High school here.  Things have gotten bad and the charter school seems to have a pretty good handle on it. So I have a few weeks to decide.  Mark wants to try it out.  I just want to make sure he gets the best education. I loved his teacher last year and was looking forward to another year.
I guess time will tell and we shall see!

She's moving

Well we talked to my niece last  night and she is on her way out.  We felt we had to give her a deadline as far as when to be  out...Other wise she would have kept her things comfortably in my spare bedroom.  She has a week to get her things out.  I felt really bad about this last night, but she hasn't been home at all..She came yesterday with her boyfriend and his sisters to sort through some old clothes and we talked to her. After that she left.  So I guess I can not feel bad about asking her take her belongings as well.  I'm sad, but I think this is the only way.  This is what SHE wants so freedom she shall have.  We do not matter to her right now and this is the only way to salvage the relationship at all.  I hope the 2 months she has been with her boyfriend are enough to get her through a life time of happiness..

I can not put her ahead of my family anymore.  This has gone on for to long and she doesn't care. So I wish her the best and look forward to getting my home back and on the right track.

Mean and Nasty the saga continues

The teen drama continues.  Mainly disrespect and attitude. I've gotten to the point very quickly where I don't care.  I LOVE my niece but she has proven that she is going to do what she wants to anyways. We go round and round with her. She doesn't like us to say anything to her at all.  She stays gone all day long..Comes home to sleep and gets up early the next morning to head to her boyfriends. Her job is upset with her because he hangs out there.  They have cut her hours back to one day a week.  They called her in today and I let her know..she never responded. Her boyfriend thinks I should be ok with her staying the night and that she should be able to stay out as late as she wants. She worships the ground he walks on.


I had been holding this all in.  It has really been weighing heavy on my heart.  So I decided to give her father a call and let him know what was going on..With everything.  I had asked him what he thought about letting her go out on her own since that is what she really wants. I told him about her boyfriends age. That had really been weighing heavy on my heart. She didn't want him to know but I wasn't going to Lie for her either.  He took it surprisingly well...and I felt such a huge relief off of my shoulders. He said he would think about it and get back with me.  In the mean time our niece decided she was not going to come home one night. I text her several times. Her curfew is 11pm.  Finally at 12:30 she calls and said she "accidentally" fell asleep. I told her she needed to get home and no response.  The next morning they showed up and were gone before anyone was up. Of course she would have gotten an ear full from me. So I let her dad know about all of that and he said I had his blessing to let her go.  That if she wanted to be emancipated and live on her own she had his blessing.  I think the only way she will ever learn is by going to The School of hard Knocks. I told her she was not allowed to stay at her boyfriends and the snotty response I got from her was that we were going to treat her like an adult by making her pay for her own things but it wasn't ok for her to stay at her boyfriends even if it was an accident. She said she was not going to walk home alone at 12:30am..Its so funny because any other time she most definitely would have and I would have picked her up.

I have tried to be supportive and loving and the only place it has gotten me is used.  Before I knew it I was buying him food at Taco Bell and taking him to work. Going to get a coffee and ending up getting them one. All they know how to do is use other people and I'm done. He is 22 live with his Grandma and has nothing to show for him self.  He has been suspended from work twice already.  She failed one of her summer school classes because it was to hard. She won't go anywhere with out him.  She was invited to go see her dad for a week and didn't want to be away from her BF for that long.  She said he had a "BAD" feeling that something would happen and her dad would make her stay. She had burnt bridges with every one. Even her own little sister. She went through her clothes and I asked if she was going to give them to her little sis.  She said she was going to let his sisters pick through them and then give the rest to her...Wow..

I could go on and on..But right now she is trying to get her stuff together so she can get moved out. We told her as long as she is here she has rules but now we are thinking we need to get her to move sooner.  She hasn't been home the last 3 nights and we don't want to deal with the stress anymore. I worry when she isn't here and I can't sleep. I love her but I have to let her go so I can focus on my family. I know at one time we were all teens and said mean things..but even I had my limits.

Mean and Nasty quotes:
 They are just mad she is gone because they want her there to clean house and take care of the kids.
Ummm, no I don't ask for her help...

Her dog pooped in one of the boys rooms...she said to Mark.."Well I'm going to tell you what everyone else tells me, keep your stuff put up or your door closed."

She insists on leaving her door unlocked. Blake goes in there if it isn't locked.  She said she shouldn't have to keep her stuff put up because its her room.  Hello you live with 3 little boys..If I don't keep mystuff put up it gets messed up.

I don't have any reason to be home.  I told her she isn't ever home and she gets a lot of freedom.  She said that wasn't reason enough.

I told her to respect her boss. She said she isn't a kiss a**

Where have I been??

Sorry I keep coming up MIA.  My home computer has decided to work when it wants to so I have to borrow my hubby's when I can.  He uses it for work and its hard to sneak away. It seems most days he doesn't have to be on it until I need it..but thats ok.  I have been getting a lot more done around the house and not getting on facebook as much.  Lately Facebook seems sort of blah to me anyways.  Some days I get crabby and don't want to see the mindless jokes or the over posters who POST everything.  There are days when I don't have much to say so I don't.  I try to post good and positive things that will hopefully affect me like they do others.

So where have I been ...well I've been swimming a  lot lately and I'm excited about that.  Normally I don't enjoy doing those sort of things because its hard work.  Packing everyone up, making sure we don't forget anything. Getting so dirty I can't stand it...but lately I seem to be over that and have enjoyed it.  Our friends Larry and Kat live in Mohave Valley so we go down to either the river with them or to their home owners association pool.  Its been great.  They are children people so I get to enjoy my self not chasing the kids the entire time.  Which in that respect the kids have LOVED going and have been SO good.  We have a great cove we go to off of the river and its just perfect.

I applied for financial aid and am thinking about going to cosmetology school. I have wanted to go forever and ever and have really been feeling down on myself that I didn't have a career.  My hubby brought me a pamphlet from All Beauty College in Bullhead City and we started talking about it a lot more. So I decided to apply and see where I get. Now I just have to figure out rides and daycare for my kiddos and I think its a go.  If I start August  I will be done in July of next year.  I'm excited, nervous and really hoping it works out.
It isn't set in stone yet, but something is going to happen very soon!

Love your kids when they are little!

Hopefully all the love a good morals you drown them with will pay off and help you through the teen years. I wonder some times what kind of person I would have been with out the love of such good parents. I see the troubled teens of today and it really scares me. Girls are learning junk younger and younger and it is really scary. I think the good parents are the untrusting parents.  Check and double check..If its think able they are doing it. our good kids are learning from the bad ones and its scary!

Mean and nasties

I figured for your viewing pleasure that I would start posting some of the "Awesome" things that my niece has said to us since she moved in.  Right now she doesn't feel that she should have any rules or regulations.  Last night I told her that we give her a lot of freedom and she needs to respect our curfew times.  During the week she has to be home by 10pm and on weekends its 11pm.  I think that is fair considering during the day she is pretty much permitted to do as she pleases. 

So since we have implemented the curfew she has all but broken the rules.  At first she would come home at 10, but stay outside for 2 hours visiting with her boyfriend.  So we changed it to where she needs to be in the house by this time. OK so she was in the house but her boyfriend would be here for 2 hours with her.  So once again we changed the rule.  She comes in he goes home..Done end of story...So last night I was telling her about all of her freedom and how as it is she is never home. She tells me that she doesn't feel like she needs to be home since she is going to summer school and working etc.  She said "This sounds bad but, I don't have any reason to be home."  Wow..Really? your boyfriend is that much more important to you than your family...Just tear my heart out now...and PS if any  of your family ever comes to you asking if your 16 year old niece can come stay with you..RUN! Don't do it, its not worth it and it will cause nothing but heartache. I know as a teenager I wasn't perfect but I would never have said anything so mean and hurtful.
The saga shall continue...