Evil has taken over

How do you say from today on, I will move forward? That from this moment I won't say mean and hurtful things and that today will be better...Today I will be better. My life is a mess and instead of pointing the finger, I will take responsibility and move forward..I just don't know right now..I'm filled with hurt and anger, but I have made choices..I've wronged people and I've hurt feelings and I don't think I can come back from this. Maybe I can come back stronger, but right now I just don't know.