Guilty pleasure

One of my Guilty pleasures are Gold Canyon candles! I could spend a $100 on them in the blink of an eye. Yesterday I got my order in. I bought 3 big ones. An apple, an apple spice and a sugar cookie. I ripped open the box and sorted through the three. Then I packed them away and hid the box out in the garage. I told Mark not to tell Dad because he gets mad when I "waste" money on stuff. Mark Laughed and we cleaned up all of the evidence. A little later I was on the computer and Mark came over and asked me how much I spent on candles. I told him it didn't matter, feeling suspicious that he was telling dad and he wanted to know how much I spent..I walked in the kitchen and he followed me. How much did you spend he asked. C'mon just tell me. I said it doesn't matter again. Brandon who was sitting on the couch said what doesn't matter. I was caught! Mark told his dad I bought candles and hid them. Ha ha! Don't trust your deep dark secrets with your 5 year old. You will get busted everytime..I spent 68.00. Not proud of that, but I LOVE them.
I had a few guys working on my alarm one time at my house and the one said how do you make your house smell so good? I was sold.

Bruce Almighty

Do you remember the movie Bruce Almighty? If you haven't seen it, its great! Has Jim Carrey, who I feel is one of the funniest actors of all time. When Bruce is given God's job he decides to answer YES to all of the prayers he receives that way it will make his job easier. Not only does it confuse things, but people are praying for ridiculous things like losing weight eating only krispy cremes or to win the lottery. There are riots and all sorts of problems. So I guess it makes me think back to the mom who taught her kids to pray and you will get what ever you want. God does answer our prayers, just not always how we want. I can not tell you how many times I've prayed for something that I "wanted." To come back later and Thank my lucky stars that God didn't grant me that prayer. Sometimes what we want at the time of prayer seems great and God knows what will happen or how things will turn out. So he saves us from the eventual disappointment!
Thank Goodness!!!!!

First time in 10 years

This last Sunday was the first time in 10 years that Brandon and I went to Church! We have been talking about going to church together for years. But never quite made it for one reason or another. Or shall I say excuse...When Mark was really little we wanted to go but felt that he was to small. Then we had Alec and he was to small. Basically we never made the time to go even though we wanted to. This I know is a heated debate as there are believers and not believers out there. I have always believed and feel that God touches my life every day. But I haven't taken the time for him. The time one hour every Sunday to go and enjoy and learn new things about him. So we waited a few months after Blake was bigger and not so suseptible to everything around him and bit the bullet yesterday. It was such a good feeling and I'm so glad that we went. The boys enjoyed it and they got to go to Sunday school. We all enjoyed it and I can see it becoming a very good routine for us to get into. The baby napped, fussed a little bit and of course let out a cry like I was killing him during the sermon. But I felt at peace being there and I'm so excited to go next Sunday!!!

I'm a big cry baby

I am a confessed worry wart. When something hurts or doesn't feel right I get scared and wonder whats wrong with me. A few days ago I started with a pulsing sound in my right ear. Then I happened to be reading in one of my magazines about how this wooshing sound can mean you have some sort of disease..blah blah blah..I pretty much ignored that although it bothered me..So I got on the computer and looked it up and found all these much worse things like Brain tumors etc. Bad enough to scare anyone. Then I started getting pains in my head at random spots. I took some tylenol but it didn't seem to touch it. Last night after researching all sorts of stuff I decided to go to bed and put it in God's hands. Not too long after I got off the computer and went to bed my face on one side got really tingly. This is along with dizziness and sinus pressure I've had. So today I broke down and went to fast tracks urgent care. He said I have an upper respiratory infection and not to focus to much on what I read. I have fluid in my ear etc. So I do feel somewhat better. I got antibiotics and some decongestant. But My face keeps getting tingly in radom spots. Kind of by my eyes, close to my temples and by my cheeks. Its scary and it has made me worry something terrible. I know my sinuses are acting up, but geez.Its so scary..I think about my hubby and what would happen if something happened to me. I don't want to leave my babies behind and its got me truly worried. Anyone else ever have this? Its nerve wracking and off course if it gets bad I will go to the ER..But I'm just hoping the antibiotics will kick in quick enough and My head will be out of the fog. The way I've felt for the past few days.
Things like this really make you double check your priorities and pray to God. While I've put it in his hands I still can't help but worry..Bleck! I hope tomorrow I start to feel better!!

my hubbie

Just when I think my couldn't be any sweeter or lovely he does this.. Alec was playing with the rod to the mini blinds. The one that makes it open and close. I didn't think anything of it. Until later I went in the lving room and saw where he wacked the tv several times. Leaving scratches on the precious big screen. I saw it and cringed knowing he was going to be mad. Knowing this may be Alec's last day on earth. Brandon came home and evaluated the tv. I had pre-warned him. He said "who did this to my tv?". Alec came and hid by me. I was washing dishes. Alec immediately started crying. He gets his feelings hurt really easy. Brandon said "why did you do that budddy?" Talking very mellow the whole time. Then he gave him a realy big hug and sat him in the chair talking to him. Alec had to do some time in his room. Obviously he needed some punishment. After Brandon was done he said it was just a material thing. He said Alec was worth way more than the tv. It made my heart smile...then he reminded me of the video we watched. It was called the last speach or last lecture. Don't know if you ever saw it. But if you haven't you should. The man is a professor who has a brain tumor and is dying. He is giving his last lecture and talks about how he wishes he could be around to watch his kids grow up and that material things don't matter. He'd give up anything for more time. This lecture was featured on Oprah and a lot of people saw it. It was so heart warming and so sad. If you've never seen it look it up. Its on you tube. Last lecture..

I know that is my biggest fear. Not being here for my babies. I pray to God everyday and would give up anything to be here with them!

So seeing what Brandon did today made my heart smile:) what a lucky woman I am to have such a gem!!

Hoarding

As I was cleaning up the kitchen a little bit (Don't know what came over me) I started thinking about people who hoard things. I wonder if they hoard because they are bored?? I know that when I am bored I go shopping and buy things I really don't need. Usually just to waste time. I know I could be cleaning or doing the several things around here that need to be done, but none of it is as fun. I get on the computer and surf or farm until I am bored. Then I get out of the house and shop because I'm bored. Not only do I spend extra money I don't need to spend I almost always come home with stuff I didn't need. I do have to say for the most part I buy for the boys, clothes or something cute. There are a few splurges here and then and sometimes I say heck with it and get something for me. Like a new coffee maker. I had an old cheap one that would spill coffee all over the counter or floor when you tried to pour from the carafe. I would go to the sink and pour. I would also wait 30 minutes on my coffee..Thus going to Starbucks became much easier. :) So yesterday I though heck with it..I got myself a 24.88 Mr. Coffee with a programable timer. A few days earlier I had one in the cart and talked myself out of it. But I just decided heck with it yesterday and today My coffee was ready when I got up.
But I seriously think boredom and hoarding are one in the same. Guess I better get that under control:)