31 weeks or 33-34?

So this Wednesday I will be 32 weeks...Or so I thought! I saw my Dr. on Saturday and he measured me and said I was measuring bigger..When I had My first ultrasound around 14 weeks it said I was Due 9-13-2009. Then I saw my doc who said they were fairly inaccurate and that we would stick with my 9-23-2009 due date. So thats where it has stayed..I had my next ultrasound around 23 weeks and my due date was 9-9-09 I thought pretty neat..But the doc stuck with the date of the 23rd..So I got used to the idea and dealt with it. Now I go on Sat and he says "so we are around 33-34 weeks now"..and I said "actually 31"..he says " how do I keep messing that up" he looks at the ultrasound and measures me and says that I've filled in and its looking more around the 13th..But just to be sure in 2 weeks when I go back he is going to send me for another ultrsound just to see..So I'm excited about that..Kind of stressed out I've possibly lost a few weeks..But thats ok..Just gotta get busy and get used to what life will be like with 3 little ones.
I'm excited, but nervous and stressed out all at the same time. I know things will work out~ I was so stressed about how things would be when I had 2..now I think adding one more will be ok..Infact I know it will be.

Summer is almost gone

I just cannot fathom how fast time goes by anymore. Its seems weeks ago it was just starting and now I'm looking at the lists of school supplies that Mark is going to need for his first year of school.
I'm really not looking forward to it. I have thought and thought of keeping him home..But feel I am compromising his education if I do so. He is so impressionable and I'm so worried about how he will do at school. I guess I worry about the other kids too. The kids that don't have good role models at home and start to shape and turn your kids because they don't know any better. We do have a k12 program here for homeschooling..but I am so torn. As it is he will go to Kindergarten 2 hours and 55 minutes a day. So I think I will let him go and see how it goes and how he likes it. I think I will know almost immediately if there are problems and he isn't reacting well. He is very excited to go to a big school and I think it will be good for him. But I just haven't quite figured out how to deal with it yet. When did I become so old fashioned that I didn't want my baby to go to school. I enjoyed school and I know he will to. Just one more thing to worry about..Sigh*

My newest obsession

Yep that's right I have been sucked in and am loving the Twilight series..I hadn't seen the movie until recently..Guess I wasn't all that interested. Man was that a mistake! We went to a friends and they were telling us how good it was so we watched it~ They were not kidding! So the next day I bought the next book..I thought about starting with the first but since I'd already seen the movie thought I may skip around, so I went to the next "New moon". For me this is huge! Very rarely do I ever start a book and stick to it. But a day and half later and some 600 pages later I was done! Sneakily I bought the next two books..Hubbie was getting jealous and its so hard to get anything done when your glued to a book. So I figure soon I'll start "Eclipse". I can't wait for the next movie to come out too! I'm thrilled!!

Starbucks boycott

I've been thinking lately that I need to boycott Starbucks....I am so addicted that I just about can't go one day with out having one. I don't like the fact that an item I consume has that kind of control over me. I think about all the money they make and its crazy!! My sister lives in Phoenix and says that the starbucks they go to goes through 150 gallons of milk per day! I just know that I get that urge for a venti caramel frappuccino and I can't resist..So I'm thinking about trying to cut down and see if I can pull away!! I think about the money out and how unhealthy these are..And how bad I want one right now!!

unaccomplished

The more I think about it the more unaccomplished I feel..I love and adore my children and am so glad to be with them. But something is missing. Myself..My need for my own career, my need to do something for me before I am unable to do it. I know everyone always says its never to late to get started. So I've been thinking about what I could do or what I'd possibly like to do. One of my girlfriends just graduated from nursing school. She is officially an RN..While I don't think thats for me, its given me the desire to do something. I've always wanted to do something..and was so glad to be out of high school that I didn't do anything!
When High School was over I got married. I didn't leave for school like so many of my friends. There never seemed like there was enough money for me to go to school. My mom didn't want me to leave and so I was never encouraged to attend college.(A whole different blog) Its left me feeling somewhat bitter. So when I could have gone to beauty school like I always thought I would being young and naive the 3000.00 it would have cost me seemed like such a huge amount. Plus there was the dreaded drive to bullhead or Lake Havasu and in my own reasoning it just didn't seem logical. Now 10 years later if I chose to go to Beauty school it would cost me on the side of 12-15,000.00. Boy did I miss the boat!
For the first 5 years of my marriage I didn't have children. So what was my reasoning?? My own worry for lack of failure, or that I wouldn't be smart enough to pull through it?? I'm not sure, but its really been on my mind. There is also my lack of support..I guess I should not call it lack of support but I don't know what to call it. For me to go back to school almost seems impossible to me right now. My husband is a work aholic. For him to stay home and watch kids is asking to much..My mom is in her 70's and gets worked up over everything. My mother in Law works full time to raise her granddaughter..Plus the drama of her own life..and alot of my family isn't in kingman..But the ones who are, are working full time, don't have children of their own, or lack the patience..along with their own drama..(Plus the added fact that it isn't their responsibility.) Not too mention the never ending financial aspect of everything. The economy has taken its hit on us like everyone else. I feel so stuck and unsure of what to do. My hubby has always had this idea of getting rich on your own and always said I was wasting my time to go back to school..Go into some sort of multilevel marketing thing..I am SO multilevel marketinged out! I'm tired of wasting tons of money to not have any thing work out. I know with schooling comes debt and paying bills back but I think I need to for my own sense of self and accomplishment..My own sense of me and who I am or need to become because I haven't yet..Other than wife and mother I need something else under my belt..Sigh
I suppose I should say this is just my current thought of being today. Tomorrow could be totally different! I shall talk with the hubby tonight...

I did however find a dog on Thursday..a shaggy dog as I was calling her..I ran a newspaper add, put out flyers, and tried to find her owner.. Today I called the pound and they had a dog matching her description in their book..so I called the lady Dee and I met up with her at the bowling ally. The look in her eyes is ingrained in my mind..The dog Woofie, was just as happy to see her and it was a good ending for all of us. She was so happy to have her dog back and I was happy for her to get back to her owner!