Mean kids

The older my kids get the more I want to protect them. The more I can't stand mean kids. What makes children so darn mean. Is it how they see us acting towards each other, how we speak to one another or just how they are?

I really don't think its the last one. I know that we have to let's our kids spread their wings, learn to be who they are and hope for them to grow into wonderful adults. But I also think the parents need to step it up and stop being so bothered by their children. Stop treating them like less of people because they are little. Everyday goes by and I'm sad that my kids are getting bigger. But atleast I will know I was there and that I tried to be a good mom even with all the challenges.

Summer kick off!

I'm so excited to be posting about the first official summer holiday! Summer is my favorite time of the year!! Eating lots of watermelon and enjoying time with the family:) I'm so motivated to do major cleaning in the house. Getting things organized and getting rid of stuff that the hubbie won't let me...he he..If you only knew what a true pack rat he is..Its bad..His mom is the same way. So he comes by it naturally. He gets frustrated because he can never find anything and that I'm unorganized. Which may be true, but I love to get rid of stuff and he never wants to give or throw anything away that he paid money for. My organizational skills have gone down hill since I've become a mom. There have been certain points where I'm so over whelmed by papers and extra junk. Its become almost impossible to keep the house organized. Add a few kids to that and a pack rat hubbie and whola you have one big gigantic mess..lol..Believe me too, if someone has something to give away, they give it to Brandon..That has to be one of my biggest pet peeves. Anything he can sell and make a buck on he will. Except for the stuff that doesn't sell and gets lost in the shuffle..Ie, my garage or my shed..I think I was able to park in the garage for a whole month..So while my nice pretty white car sits outside and gets sundamaged, our junk is forever preserved in the garage..GRRRRR..makes me mad thinking about it..

So with that said, I hope that everyone has a great memorial day weekend and great summer kick off! My hopes are for a brighter future for my garage and my poor car as I continue to throw stuff out and clean stuff up!!

Insecure...

I don't know what it is about this pregnancy, but I am so insecure..I feel good, but worry about the after affects of a 3rd pregnancy...Its crazy...Thus far I am 21 weeks, getting ready to roll over on Wednesday. I have already gained 17lbs...I have no self control..its terrible..All I want to do is eat junk..I fight it all the time, every day..Its like an addiction or something..I have gladly nursed both of my boys and will do the same with the newbie..That seems to be the key to my weight loss. I just can't help but be worried about how I will be after baby number 3 gets here..I think this is when it starts to kick in..the fact that I will have 3 children. I have managed to slim down with the other two, but still have my concerns about my self and how the hubbie will view me. Luckily he loves me not matter what, curves and all. He seems to be able to embrace the changes I go through with each pregnancy..I guess thats my motivation for my after baby weight loss. I thank god that he loves me no matter what. Some men never get over the changes that happen to their wives and some just love us more. Thankfully I have one of those "i love you no matter what"

We had Mark's 5th party this weekend..It was crazy at my house. I've never had so many kids here ever. He had a blast though..It turned out well and he was very happy with the outcome.
Now I debate the ever lasting debate about whether or not we do a party every year or not...Its alot of work and alot of craziness..Do people ever get tired of going to birthday parties and social events? I think so..So we will see..I am always open to ideas and improvement!

20 weeks half way point

Well, I have finally made it to the half way point in pregnancy number 3. Baby number 3 is moving all over the place and finally getting to the point of kicking me in the ribs. The pregnancy is going well. I haven't really been sick at all and I feel pretty good. I'm usually tired in the evening, but I feel over tired and normally I can't sleep. The hot summer weather is here and its going to make for a very long season. I think I'm up for the challenge. Brandon will be freezing out of the house if I have anything to do with it. He is typically anti running the AC, but I already put in my two sense on that one:) He has no choice..
Mark's 5th birthday party is coming up next weekend. Trying to get all of the planning set for that. I think he will really enjoy it. Its a time when things are 100% about him and he loves that.
Alec is learning quickly the art of antagonizing his brother. The are both such sweet and good boys!

The Run down

So I thought I would give blogging a try..Everyone that I know that writes blogs seems to really enjoy it. Maybe for me it would be a good way to vent or feel heard. Also give everyone updates on whats happening with us..

We are fast approaching Mark's 5th birthday! I can not believe that soon enough I will be the mom to a 5 year old. The past 5 years have gone by so fast that my head is spinning. He is so wonderful though. I don't know what Brandon and I ever did before we were parents. Alec is 2 and a half. He knows how to get what he wants and how to get under his brothers skin. We have a new baby on the way..I don't know how we are going to do that...But I guess its just something you do. This one is a huge surprise. I'm trying to enjoy every minute of the pregnancy know this will most likely be my last. I tried the same with Alec, but I guess deep down I wasn't convinced he was my last. I look forward to having a new baby and just cross my fingers that things will go well with the siblings. I guess its something you always worry about as a parent. Aside from everything else going on in the world..I could spend my days in a cocoon trying to avoid all the negative garbage that is out there. But I don't I just put myself out there and try to be a good mom and wife. With the everyday struggles that are going on.

We've had to take a few steps back and re-evaluate our life, our finances and each other. I guess sometimes thats how you grow and learn. Things are going better than ever though at this point.

We are 19 weeks pregnant by dates and 21 by ultrasound. The doc says that we can have the baby anytime in between, but he thinks closer to 19 weeks. I just go with the flow. The baby is moving all the time now and its the best feeling. Although I am growing more insecure as my body starts to round out. It amazes me how the female body can construct and grow a baby. Such a miracle. I've done the delivery thing twice now, but that still doesn't stop me from getting nervous when I think about it. Hopefully this time I will get an epidural..High 5 to those women who can go with out..I did it once not by choice, but hope this time I will have the choice:)

Brandon is working hard as usual...He still works for Banker Insulation full time and on the side he is working for Tri state solar and wind. Selling wind turbines. Everyone is going green and the earning potential is huge. so he works just as much trying to stay busy and keep us afloat during these rough economic times..He made his first sale last week and is setting up lots of appointments.