Saturday, November 12, 2011

Sincerity

I think a little bit of sincerity goes a long way. Lately I've seen so many people just going through the motions and it really bugs me. When did life become so busy that we can't genuinely take interest in people. There are so many people out there that ask you how you are. But how many actually care or take interest. Its hard to find good friends. Even harder when everyone is so busy with their own lives. I guess I do know exactly how this is. I get busy and there are days that when I don't have to leave the house I don't. I sometimes wonder where I would be if I didn't have the few close friends I have managed to hang on to. I guess I'm very dependent on my husband and now that he is so busy with work and school I am about to go mad! Maybe thats why I'm noticing how insincere people are or can be. I probably ready way to much into it. I have a lot more time to think now that the hubby is so busy. I don't know that I could be single for very long or be a single mom. Right now all the kids needs are met by me and its tough. A little alone time goes a long way. Right now I'm working on getting my college stuff in order. Did you know they are enrolling for the spring classes already? WOW! Of course there have been a few hiccups but nothing to bad. I'm working on the financial aid aspect right now. Its being held up because around 15 years ago I took some classes with a friend. They were dual enrollment and they were being offered for free. I was still in high school and not really ready to take them seriously. I wanted to get the credits to graduate early but didn't have to have the classes. I also feel that being in high school and at the age that you aren't taken seriously I was misinformed about a lot of things. Like when you take a class, drop it if you do not intend to stay. Then it does not go on your records as a fail or affect your GPA. No clue..or buying your books...I was a poor high school student. My parents had money but I did not..haha...I didn't even know I had to have books. I mean how retarded was that? But I had never taken college classes and had never been walked through it and honestly I don't think they ever told us. So now that I'm older I know better. Its a learned thing and I'm ready to go, but I have to have to have an appeal for those classes that I didn't finish saying why..Do you think they will listen to the fact that I was a retard?? mmmm, probably not..but its just another step to move forward. I'm ready and will get there sooner or later... My challenge for you today is when you are talking to someone really be there. Take interest in them. You never know what they may be dealing with on the inside. They could be hurting really bad or just need that kick to help their self esteem.

2 comments:

Heidi said...

I feel ya on the whole feeling like a single mom! Hubby has been the varisty baseball coach for the high school for at least 5 years now, and every year, I get about 5 months of single mom-dom, which can be very rewarding to my self esteem at times (I can be supermom!), but also very exhausting. And you're right...it is VERY hard to find someone who REALLY takes an interest in your life...good friends are hard to find. :( Good luck with the whole college thing!

Anonymous said...

Very touching article, and I like the layout style.

Yea, college is hectic, it's like the 11th grade (highschool) but 3 or 4 times as intensive. I've spent a couple all-nighters, hardly had time for fun. And to be honest, I've learned a lot more outside of college, than in it. If I could do a do-over / reset button, I probably wouldn't have gone to college, it's very pricey, some professors are jerks that never admit they're wrong even when you contradict them with pages from the text books. Some professors were really nice, and it's the ones that are really nice and care which you learn the most from and enjoy the classes the best. I am glad I met some nice teachers and students though. It's certainly a trade off though, good and bad. ... Take care and happy holidays